So it’s official. I’m going FT. As I walk bravely into the unknown I thought I’d share my concerns; then in a year ill come back and repost them, with how these things turned out.
Things I’m worried about :
1) My funds. I’ve set aside enough for 3 months living expenses at my current lifestyle; but I’m cutting expenses by moving into a place with cheaper rent. However the move requires acquiring a car. So there’s that. Still, the amount I have set aside should last me 6 months at my estimated cost of living in the new location–yet I’m terrified it won’t be enough, and that I won’t be able to make money to replace my savings.
2) My diligence. That once I’m out of an office and working from home I’ll find I lack the motivation necessary to truly succeed. That I’ll become lazy, and get up each day around noon, never change out of my PJs and fail to overcome the fears listed here because I never truly try. I’ve been in positions before where fear of failure prevented me from success. And I’m scared it’ll happen again.
3) That I will try, but I’ll find I’m just not good enough. That my writing will never by published or paid for; that somehow the freelance work I’ve done up until this point and my job as a writer and editor has been a fluke accident and no one will ever pay me to put words down again.
4) Even though I know how much work it will take to be successful at this, that my friends and family won’t understand and that I’ll lose people who are important to me because they don’t get how hard I’m trying not to fail. In large part my ability to go freelance is because of the support of those I love–without them, I’m not sure where I’d be. And I’m worried they don’t understand what this is going to cost/require of me.
5) That I’ll be miserable. Even though this is what I’ve wanted to do for the last 6 years, I haven’t ever worked for myself before; I’ve never freelanced full time before. So I’m scared that once I am, I’ll find I don’t enjoy it or that I’d prefer to work for someone else.
Fellow freelancers, what were your fears? Were they unfounded? What new things have you found to fear instead?
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